Time is running out

If my laptop is human, this is probably what he would say -

"There's 500 other songs in the library, would you like some changes?"

But no. I don't care.

So come on, so come on

It's the first day of June. Half of the year, wow that was really fast. 

My final exam will start in 1 month, and if I pass that (oh please), I'll be done with my first year. And I'm looking forward for the practical classes because I suck at memorizing things, I suck at studying basically. I just think that my IQ level is decreasing if that is even possible... And I'm currently hoping that I'll be better at hand skills, because seriously the lecture notes are no joke. And also, our exam system is conducted to be - all 4 subjects in 1 paper, for 4 days without break . Kinda hard to explain the format but all I can say is that... whoever made it to be that way must be crazy or something. Sorry not sorry.

And at times like this that I wish I was still in school. It was just the other day I was talking with my bestfriend, reminiscing about high school. Laughing to those memories makes me miss school so damn much. Probably the best part of my life so far. And I just cannot believe that it has been 3 years. Three. Freaking. Years. It feels just like yesterday we were chilling at the benches across the basketball court during break. And those were the times where I met my 5 best girlfriends that will always be my favourite people. And speaking of, today ( the clock is 11.59pm so it still counts ok) is the birthday of one of them. Happy birthday to the girl who lives with books, Nurul 'Atiqah Mohd Khairi! She is currently thousands of miles away. Hope we can celebrate once you get here though :) I love you ♥

The thing is, once you finish high school, somehow life just gets into a fast-forward mode. Well that's what happened to me. I just cannot believe that I'm 20 this year. Like seriously? No more -teen. I don't want this. I just want to wear pajamas and watch cartoons. I want to eat cereal every morning and not to worry about doing laundry or the dishes. I want to play around, be naive and live without worries. As much as I want to get married, I just can't imagine growing up. I don't think that I'm ready for any responsibilities. I can't even make new friends? (doesn't relate but wtv)

The picture quote above I shall print and hang on my wall. Sigh.

Hello May

Coffee: Often regarded as a harmless beverage, coffee is actually a highly additive anxiety-inducing drug; it makes people more alert, but it also makes them jittery and nervous. Anyone who suffers from anxiety disorder or any kind of pathological anxiety issues should absolutely avoid coffee. 

But somehow I've come to point that I feel better when I have coffee. 

Brighter side we seek

I'm in a holidayyy! Halfway through the second semester now. How time flies, another half semester and I'm done for the year. InsyaAllah. Feeling quite emotional tonight & I stumbled upon something that I thought was worth sharing...

 Some think that everything happens spontaneously. No! Nothing happens except that it has been decreed to happen. Working hard to achieve your goal is paramount though, but God decides how he rewards mankind. The blessings bestowed by Allah are more than what we can count.

Allah is promising any being who gives thanks to Him would be further blessed. Indeed, Allah never breaks His promise. “And remember! Your Lord caused to be declared (publicly): “If you are grateful, I will add more (favours) unto you; But if you show ingratitude, truly My punishment is terrible indeed.” 

Always say Alhamdulillah. 

 My Lord, Sustain me that I may be thankful for the favours that You have conferred upon me and my parents, and to do what is righteous that I may receive Your satisfaction.

Should try to comprehend

One of my current obsession is that guy in gold jacket. As for now, he is my idea of perfection.

10 months since my last post. Ok so fast-forward -- life has been fine, got into one of the local top university  I can say (?) with the course that I actually put as my first choice. Now I'm thinking why I did that...
Well it was all great and interesting at first ( still is from some perspective) but as the study week came around I thought I thought I was going to use up all my energy and also, 4/5 of the time I felt light-headed. I have never tried that hard for an exam. Ever. On the bright side, I'm lucky we just have sets of  8 teeth.

And after that struggle comes this month-break. But I'm already approximately a week away from the 2nd semester. Which I bet, will be much tougher. Life must go on anyway...

I just hope that I can finish the course within 5 years. And that's one of my ultimate goal now.

Sometimes I wonder why I did, what I did. This is so stupid.