My perspective and your objective

Trying to fix things back to normal is not easy. Part of me is so reluctant to grow up. And another part is just trying to put myself together, trying not to give up to the future. Whatever that is going to come, I must face it in the best way. Have you ever came across those particular moment in your life when you feel like there's entirely nothing to be worried about? No obligation, no pressure, no promises, nothing. I had that when I was a kid. When I still couldn't figure out what is right and what is not.

People say that as you grow up, there will be less things to make you smile. It may be too early to say that as I'm not that old (OK), but I'm kind of in the midst of getting the glimpse of it.

Abah : We can be there in 10 minutes top, let me watch the news first...

Me : What if there's a traffic jam?

Abah : There won't be

Me : How do you know that?!

Abah : We can use the other route then if there is, OK?

My dad says that I'm a paranoid. But I strongly disagree to that. I'd rather describe myself as realist. In relation to the example above. I tend to think of a million possibilities that could happen in a certain situation so that I won't be disappointed. Well, not too much. That's just how I live. Not every time that I voice it out. Sometimes I think I should just stop with all this "what if's" in my mind. It's killing me softly. But I have no control to it.

How I wish that my wishes could come true and my imaginations bring me good. Hopes suffocate me.